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Previously on The Affair...

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You look just like your father, Cole.

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Always tell me that, but I don't see it.

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Your grandfather, Silas, was
a terrible person, boys.

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He was a drunk. He beat your dad.

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Oh, so that's what it was.

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Dad had a rough childhood?

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That's what was wrong with him?

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Not the fact that he was
a stumble-down drunk?

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Dad just disappeared for six months?

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- What did he do?
- He went to California.

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To a town with a giant rock
in the middle of the sea.

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Six months later, he came
back with a surfboard.

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He seemed a little lighter.

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I think you're giving up

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because we've made a mess of everything.

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If you leave Luisa now, you can't
play the good guy anymore.

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Then you're an asshole, just like me.

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I know I'm disappointing you.

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And you deserve better.
So, what if I left?

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Would you be willing to give me the time

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to just go away and...

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Yes.

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I don't want this to end.

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I just need to know that I matter.

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Do you think she even realizes
these cans are hers, not ours?

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No, I don't. And she's not going to

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if you keep moving 'em for her.

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- I'm not getting treatment.
- That just doesn't make any sense.

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I'm not gonna sit around
and watch you die.

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Believe it or not, Helen,

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you don't get to make that choice.

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Vik is very sick,

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and he won't listen to me.
He's refusing treatment.

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I asked you not to tell my parents,

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and what did you do?

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I had to. She's your mother.

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I just... just please, can we...

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- please make a plan?
- Okay.

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Let's have a baby.

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How's that for a plan?

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Sync and corrections by btsix
www.addic7ed.com

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You have to go.

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I want to do it.

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Yeah, but you have to go.

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Wait. Let me just wash my hands.

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You're gonna be late.

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- It's okay.
- I can do it.

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Helen, it'll take two minutes.

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Yeah, I know, but I know

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how stressed-out you
get when you're late.

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Just... It's okay.

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- You sure?
- Yeah.

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I'll just do my upper thigh.

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- Okay.
- Okay.

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Hey, Vik.

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Uh, have your... have your
parents said anything?

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At all?

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About what?

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I'll see you later today at Dr. Roper's?

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- Yep. I'll be there.
- Okay.

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Come on, hurry up. I
don't want to be late.

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Mom left me your lunch,
so I'll get that for you

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and then we got to go.

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Bye, guys!

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- Have good days!
- Bye, Vik!

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Hey, give me back my notebook.

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I'm telling you, all the new immigrants

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from Lebanon, they have it
so much easier than we did.

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They go to the top right away.

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Like that Amal Clooney.

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She's not exactly a new immigrant, Dad.

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Think she went to NYU.

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Does this really work?

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Yeah. It can read your
glucose values in real time.

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Why do you have to change
it every two weeks?

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That's so inconvenient.

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Or you could just go back

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to pricking your finger once a day.

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Okay. You're good.

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I have this customer

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- who's a doctor.
- Mm-hmm.

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Have I told you about him?

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You have, but he's not a doctor.

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He's a physician's assistant.

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Here, there is no difference.

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There is, in fact.

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He can write prescriptions.

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What about him?

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He says, in America,

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there's no art left to medicine.

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It's basically just machines
doing the diagnosing.

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In a few years, there will be
no need for surgeons anymore.

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A robot will do your job.

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Things to think about.

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How's the Prius working out?

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It's a good car, right?

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Ah...

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You don't like it?

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Yeah, sure, I like that it saves gas,

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but sometimes I want something

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with a little bit more
zip, you know. Power.

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Especially here in L.A., you know.

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The bastards, they cut
me off all the time.

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What can I do?

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I got this little putt-putt car.

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Yeah, what did you want, Dad? A Porsche?

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Hey. What's with the tone?

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You asked, I told you.

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- Why are you upset?
- I'm not upset.

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He's not upset. You're the
one who sounds upset.

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- I am not upset.
- Why can't you be

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more thankful to Vik
for taking care of us?

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Of course I am thankful.

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He knows that.

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I'm just saying, maybe we should

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have better communication.

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Look.

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Speaking of communication,

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there are a few details
I want to go over.

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First, um, about my life insurance.

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You should know, it's
about a million dollars,

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and you guys are the beneficiaries.

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I've kept my overhead pretty low

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for most of my life.

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Until you met Helen.

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So I've got decent savings,

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all of which will go to you.

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Um, also...

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before I get too sick,

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I will make sure...

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What...

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Why do you have to be so cruel, Vikram?

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- So heartless.
- What?

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We all heard what Helen said.

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Do you think we're deaf?

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And now you have to go
and rub it in our faces?

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Listen, Ma.

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Helen and I are...

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We're working on having a baby.

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A grandchild.

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For you and Baba.

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Helen is too old to have a baby.

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No, actually,

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there are a lot of new treatments now.

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Women are having children
well into their 50s.

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And we've been seeing a
fertility doctor for weeks.

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Hmm? Hmm?

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- How is she? Is everything okay?
- The surgery went very smoothly.

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Now, Jenny's recovering.

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You should be able to see
her in about an hour.

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- Thank God.
- Thank you.

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Let's sit, talk about next steps.

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Now, I did find tumors,

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which we are sending away for tests.

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Wait. What does that mean?

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You-you said everything went well.

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Well, until we get the results back,

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there's no way of knowing

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whether they're malignant or benign.

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M-Malignant meaning what?

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Malignant meaning cancer?

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We really don't know.

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But I'm going to be honest with you.

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Jenny could have liver cancer.

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Now, I stress "could,"

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- because there's...
- No!

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Even if the tests confirm malignancy,

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there are lots of good options.

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- No, no, no!
- Dr. Mattu in pediatric oncology

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is probably the best in the country.

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- Honey.
- No!

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We'll set you up with a
consultation immediately,

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just in case, so you
understand the options.

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If this is worst-case scenario,

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these cancers...

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No! No!

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- No, no.
- Honey...

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- Please!
- These cancers...

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can be very specifically
targeted nowadays.

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It's not fair!

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She's just a little girl!

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Honey, the doctor's saying
they don't know yet.

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Mr. Rodriguez,

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our social worker, he
is on the premises.

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No! No!

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No, no!

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No!

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Excuse me.

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No! Please!

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Have you been keeping
up on the injections?

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Yes, I have.

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Hopefully, this will all be worth it.

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Let's take a look at those follicles.

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Success?

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Why don't you get dressed,

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and we'll meet in my office
and discuss next steps.

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I'm sorry.

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Please, don't apologize.

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- It's not your fault.
- Actually, it is.

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Stop.

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- Because of your age?
- No.

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I haven't been doing the shots.

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- What do you mean?
- What I just said.

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You haven't been injecting yourself?

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No. Not all the time.

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Not as much as I'm supposed to be.

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Helen.

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This is costing us 11 grand.

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I-I know.

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- I don't understand.
- Well, I can't do it alone.

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- You're not doing it alone.
- I'm right here.

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- I left work to be here.
- That's not what I mean.

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Vik, a child is a lot of work.

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I want to give you what you want...

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I really do... But I can't

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go through that again if
you're not gonna be here.

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You fucking lied to me.

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I know. I'm sorry.

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I told my parents we were having a baby.

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I don't know what to
do about your parents.

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- What is wrong with you?!
- If you want me

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to have your baby, you
have to at least try

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to be here with me while I do it.

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Every single day, your odds

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of beating this thing get less and less.

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We cannot waste any more time.

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We have to make some choices.

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I gotta get back to work.

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- No, you don't.
- Yes, I do.

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How is she? Is everything okay?

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Well, I can't do it alone.

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Afternoon, Dr. Ullah. Busy day?

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They all are.

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Helen is too old to have a baby.

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I haven't been doing the shots.

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Why do you have to be so cruel, Vikram?

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- Success?
- So heartless.

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We cannot waste any more time.

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You have to at least try to be
here with me while I do it.

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- Have your parents said anything?
- Dr. Ullah.

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Everything okay?

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She's just a little girl!

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Yeah, uh...

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I'm such an idiot.

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I forgot, I have a meeting downtown.

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Okay.

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Drive safely.

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How much is that Porsche?

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That's the 911 Turbo S Cabriolet.

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580 horsepower, zero
to 60 in 2.8 seconds,

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and a 3.8-liter engine with
very little turbo lag.

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So, how much?

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205 K.

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You take American Express?

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Do you want to take it
for a test drive, sir?

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Nah.

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Whew.

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I just like it.

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Vik?

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What are you doing?

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Hey, Sierra.

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Actually, I don't know
if you've noticed this,

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but, uh, most Fridays, I end
up moving your trash cans

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back up into your driveway
because you somehow

266
00:16:09,930 --> 00:16:11,719
don't get around to doing it before I...

267
00:16:11,720 --> 00:16:13,799
Oh, my God. Is that your car?

268
00:16:15,300 --> 00:16:17,460
Yeah. I just got it.

269
00:16:19,550 --> 00:16:21,840
You know, if you ever want to see

270
00:16:21,860 --> 00:16:25,180
what it can really do, I know
the best road in Malibu.

271
00:16:29,300 --> 00:16:30,869
How about now?

272
00:16:42,300 --> 00:16:43,509
Mmm.

273
00:16:51,300 --> 00:16:53,430
Apparently, this road is haunted.

274
00:16:54,090 --> 00:16:55,509
No way.

275
00:16:55,510 --> 00:16:56,749
Yeah.

276
00:16:56,750 --> 00:16:58,610
The Indians considered
it forbidden ground.

277
00:16:58,640 --> 00:16:59,730
They wouldn't set foot here.

278
00:16:59,740 --> 00:17:01,879
And then, during the Great
Depression, there were

279
00:17:01,880 --> 00:17:03,300
these cultists who lived here,

280
00:17:03,310 --> 00:17:06,090
and they were known for wearing
black robes and hoods,

281
00:17:06,100 --> 00:17:07,970
and they would tie young boys to crosses

282
00:17:07,980 --> 00:17:09,219
and beat them to death.

283
00:17:09,220 --> 00:17:10,389
That's all?

284
00:17:10,390 --> 00:17:12,179
And then, years later,

285
00:17:12,180 --> 00:17:14,469
there was an insane
asylum, like, right here.

286
00:17:14,470 --> 00:17:16,049
- Come on.
- It's true.

287
00:17:22,360 --> 00:17:23,849
I have a question for you.

288
00:17:23,850 --> 00:17:25,309
Okay.

289
00:17:25,310 --> 00:17:27,639
I need the advice of a grown man.

290
00:17:27,640 --> 00:17:28,799
Shoot.

291
00:17:28,800 --> 00:17:30,529
Okay, so...

292
00:17:30,530 --> 00:17:32,969
I've been hooking up with this guy.

293
00:17:32,970 --> 00:17:34,340
It's casual.

294
00:17:34,350 --> 00:17:35,910
He's my age.

295
00:17:35,920 --> 00:17:37,669
He's good-looking enough.

296
00:17:37,670 --> 00:17:39,710
He's a model, actually.

297
00:17:40,640 --> 00:17:42,699
But he's so immature.

298
00:17:42,700 --> 00:17:45,849
And he sucks in bed.

299
00:17:45,850 --> 00:17:48,059
I mean, his dick doesn't
even get completely hard,

300
00:17:48,060 --> 00:17:49,679
and then he just finishes so quickly,

301
00:17:49,680 --> 00:17:51,350
I don't even get a chance to come.

302
00:17:52,300 --> 00:17:53,679
And I love to come.

303
00:17:56,350 --> 00:17:58,429
So you want me to recommend a urologist?

304
00:17:58,430 --> 00:18:00,639
I just want to know what's
wrong with guys my age.

305
00:18:00,640 --> 00:18:04,059
I mean, how... how old were you
when you learned how to fuck?

306
00:18:04,060 --> 00:18:06,009
I mean, like...

307
00:18:06,010 --> 00:18:07,679
like, really fuck.

308
00:18:10,400 --> 00:18:11,810
I have an idea.

309
00:18:13,100 --> 00:18:15,549
Let's see how fast this
car can really go.

310
00:18:15,550 --> 00:18:17,679
I want to get home, and I want to drink.

311
00:18:17,680 --> 00:18:19,510
You want to drink?

312
00:18:32,100 --> 00:18:34,009
What seems to be the problem, Officer?

313
00:18:34,010 --> 00:18:35,679
House burning down?

314
00:18:35,680 --> 00:18:37,060
Friend here in labor?

315
00:18:39,300 --> 00:18:41,299
No, Officer.

316
00:18:41,300 --> 00:18:42,849
Okay, then you want to explain

317
00:18:42,850 --> 00:18:44,449
what the fuck was going on back there?

318
00:18:44,450 --> 00:18:46,090
Yeah, we were just having a good time.

319
00:18:46,100 --> 00:18:47,849
Got a little out of control.

320
00:18:47,850 --> 00:18:50,609
Okay, well, your good time
almost got you killed today.

321
00:18:52,300 --> 00:18:53,849
Oh, you think that's funny.

322
00:18:53,850 --> 00:18:56,760
No. No, it's just, um...

323
00:18:58,500 --> 00:19:02,000
I have stage four cancer, so
I'll be dead soon anyway.

324
00:19:02,510 --> 00:19:04,460
That's not the first time
I've heard that, buddy.

325
00:19:05,340 --> 00:19:06,880
So write me a ticket, then.

326
00:19:07,390 --> 00:19:08,430
Okay.

327
00:19:17,130 --> 00:19:19,670
Uh, sorry about the mess.

328
00:19:21,710 --> 00:19:23,459
I live with kids.

329
00:19:23,460 --> 00:19:25,210
This is pristine.

330
00:19:30,470 --> 00:19:32,590
Is it your birthday?

331
00:19:32,600 --> 00:19:35,440
Uh, yeah, a couple days ago.

332
00:19:36,220 --> 00:19:38,229
- Well, happy birthday.
- Yeah.

333
00:19:38,230 --> 00:19:42,300
Twenty-nine, no kids,
not married, no career.

334
00:19:42,320 --> 00:19:45,279
Just... really killing it.

335
00:19:45,280 --> 00:19:46,719
Looks like you had a party.

336
00:19:46,720 --> 00:19:47,969
Uh, no.

337
00:19:47,970 --> 00:19:50,009
This is all from my mom.

338
00:19:50,010 --> 00:19:52,550
She's on a shoot in Zanzibar.

339
00:19:53,550 --> 00:19:56,009
Further away she gets,
the more shit she sends.

340
00:19:56,010 --> 00:19:57,889
At least it's nice shit.

341
00:19:57,890 --> 00:20:01,009
Uh, that... that is swag, actually.

342
00:20:01,010 --> 00:20:03,390
"From your friends at Sony.

343
00:20:03,400 --> 00:20:05,180
Happy wrap."

344
00:20:18,140 --> 00:20:20,350
So, how long have you known you're sick?

345
00:20:24,880 --> 00:20:26,130
A few weeks.

346
00:20:26,840 --> 00:20:28,280
What kind of cancer?

347
00:20:29,300 --> 00:20:30,800
Pancreatic.

348
00:20:32,230 --> 00:20:33,590
That's a bad one, isn't it?

349
00:20:35,300 --> 00:20:36,660
You want to sit down?

350
00:20:41,190 --> 00:20:43,940
You, um... you look good.

351
00:20:45,250 --> 00:20:47,249
Don't people who have cancer

352
00:20:47,250 --> 00:20:49,119
usually lose their hair from the chemo?

353
00:20:51,510 --> 00:20:53,030
I'm not getting chemo.

354
00:20:54,020 --> 00:20:55,479
Why not?

355
00:20:55,480 --> 00:20:56,950
It's not going to work.

356
00:20:58,010 --> 00:21:00,420
And it'll make the time I
have left a total nightmare.

357
00:21:01,640 --> 00:21:03,050
Drink.

358
00:21:11,510 --> 00:21:13,390
I'm gonna open another bottle.

359
00:21:15,600 --> 00:21:17,449
Where are you from, Vik?

360
00:21:17,450 --> 00:21:19,010
I'm from here.

361
00:21:19,570 --> 00:21:21,449
My dad's from Lebanon,

362
00:21:21,450 --> 00:21:23,570
and my mom's from Mumbai.

363
00:21:25,300 --> 00:21:26,700
Do they know?

364
00:21:28,440 --> 00:21:29,979
I'm not sure.

365
00:21:29,980 --> 00:21:31,399
What do you mean?

366
00:21:31,400 --> 00:21:32,899
I told them,

367
00:21:32,900 --> 00:21:34,220
but...

368
00:21:36,100 --> 00:21:38,600
they won't hear that I'm sick.

369
00:21:40,050 --> 00:21:41,430
Like, literally.

370
00:21:42,220 --> 00:21:44,440
They seem unable to process it.

371
00:21:45,310 --> 00:21:46,849
And today, I heard myself

372
00:21:46,850 --> 00:21:49,420
promising them that Helen
was going to have my baby.

373
00:21:50,890 --> 00:21:52,040
Really?

374
00:21:52,730 --> 00:21:53,770
For them.

375
00:21:54,470 --> 00:21:55,630
Not for me.

376
00:21:56,660 --> 00:21:57,840
Not for her.

377
00:21:59,280 --> 00:22:00,550
For them.

378
00:22:02,170 --> 00:22:04,670
So I don't fail them completely.

379
00:22:13,600 --> 00:22:14,930
You know, I think...

380
00:22:18,220 --> 00:22:22,090
I think, when you have
immigrant parents,

381
00:22:22,600 --> 00:22:24,810
you end up being responsible for them.

382
00:22:26,050 --> 00:22:27,890
Like, you're the parent.

383
00:22:29,350 --> 00:22:30,980
Yeah, I know that feeling.

384
00:22:32,430 --> 00:22:35,070
I was the perfect immigrant son.

385
00:22:36,100 --> 00:22:38,240
But I made a deal with myself...

386
00:22:38,740 --> 00:22:39,760
long time ago.

387
00:22:41,890 --> 00:22:45,339
I said, okay, I will become a doctor

388
00:22:45,340 --> 00:22:47,560
because that's what they want.

389
00:22:48,430 --> 00:22:50,420
And I will support them,

390
00:22:51,050 --> 00:22:53,070
and I will make them proud.

391
00:22:54,300 --> 00:22:55,889
I'll even move back to L.A.

392
00:22:55,890 --> 00:22:57,739
so I can take care of
them when they're old,

393
00:22:57,740 --> 00:23:00,850
but I will not marry for them.

394
00:23:02,430 --> 00:23:04,410
And I will not have children for them.

395
00:23:05,470 --> 00:23:08,300
I will do all that stuff on my time.

396
00:23:10,180 --> 00:23:11,320
Not theirs.

397
00:23:12,760 --> 00:23:14,600
And then I met this woman.

398
00:23:16,300 --> 00:23:19,010
And she already had kids, and...

399
00:23:20,640 --> 00:23:22,750
I think there was a part of me that...

400
00:23:24,020 --> 00:23:25,770
liked that, you know?

401
00:23:27,110 --> 00:23:31,270
Because I knew it was gonna
drive them fucking crazy.

402
00:23:35,350 --> 00:23:36,790
Everything...

403
00:23:40,550 --> 00:23:42,810
Everything I've done

404
00:23:44,210 --> 00:23:46,230
has either been for

405
00:23:47,390 --> 00:23:49,660
or in reaction to them.

406
00:23:53,290 --> 00:23:55,830
I'm 45 years old.

407
00:23:58,100 --> 00:24:00,640
I'm at the top of my profession.

408
00:24:03,110 --> 00:24:04,900
I'm going to die.

409
00:24:08,290 --> 00:24:12,890
And I haven't really made a
single choice for myself.

410
00:24:51,180 --> 00:24:54,640
Guess what my mother's
favorite thing about me is.

411
00:24:56,850 --> 00:24:58,299
What?

412
00:24:58,300 --> 00:24:59,970
My skin.

413
00:25:02,760 --> 00:25:04,049
Your skin?

414
00:25:04,050 --> 00:25:05,510
Yeah, my skin.

415
00:25:06,430 --> 00:25:07,990
She's obsessed with it.

416
00:25:08,680 --> 00:25:10,430
Whenever I see her, she's always

417
00:25:10,850 --> 00:25:12,800
touching it or pinching it.

418
00:25:17,670 --> 00:25:20,710
She will never forgive me for
being younger than she is.

419
00:29:02,600 --> 00:29:04,259
Hey.

420
00:29:04,260 --> 00:29:05,469
Help you?

421
00:29:05,470 --> 00:29:06,969
Yeah, maybe.

422
00:29:06,970 --> 00:29:09,180
I mean, it's probably a lost cause,

423
00:29:09,220 --> 00:29:10,799
but I'm trying to figure
out who made this board,

424
00:29:10,800 --> 00:29:13,179
and I think it came from
around here in Morro Bay.

425
00:29:13,180 --> 00:29:14,729
Oh.

426
00:29:14,730 --> 00:29:16,890
- You mind?
- Nope. Go ahead.

427
00:29:17,970 --> 00:29:19,139
Wow.

428
00:29:19,140 --> 00:29:20,719
It's beautiful.

429
00:29:20,720 --> 00:29:23,179
Thank you. It's my father's.

430
00:29:23,180 --> 00:29:24,799
Hey, Joe.

431
00:29:24,800 --> 00:29:26,890
You come take a look at this?

432
00:29:29,720 --> 00:29:31,639
- Hey. I'm Cole.
- Joey.

433
00:29:31,640 --> 00:29:33,429
Nice to meet you, Joey.

434
00:29:33,430 --> 00:29:34,970
Let me see this.

435
00:29:37,240 --> 00:29:39,660
Well, this is original, huh?

436
00:29:41,040 --> 00:29:44,040
We see a, uh, lot of wooden kit boards,

437
00:29:44,120 --> 00:29:45,509
but not many like this.

438
00:29:45,510 --> 00:29:47,489
You, uh... you selling?

439
00:29:47,490 --> 00:29:49,759
No, no. Just trying to
figure out who made it.

440
00:29:49,760 --> 00:29:51,219
From around here?

441
00:29:51,220 --> 00:29:52,799
Well, could be anybody.

442
00:29:52,800 --> 00:29:54,429
Definitely 1970s, though.

443
00:29:54,430 --> 00:29:56,549
You got the classic nose
and the swallow tail,

444
00:29:56,550 --> 00:29:58,799
a single fin, uh...

445
00:29:58,800 --> 00:30:00,229
heavy varnish.

446
00:30:00,230 --> 00:30:02,009
Not too many surf shops back then.

447
00:30:02,010 --> 00:30:03,549
Just a bunch of individual shapers

448
00:30:03,550 --> 00:30:05,659
working out of garages, but...

449
00:30:05,660 --> 00:30:08,010
whoever made it had a good touch.

450
00:30:09,550 --> 00:30:11,179
I recognize this.

451
00:30:11,180 --> 00:30:13,410
It's not from a surf shop,
though. It's a, um...

452
00:30:13,420 --> 00:30:16,590
this art gallery a couple blocks over.

453
00:30:16,600 --> 00:30:18,400
- Well, good luck.
- Thank you.

454
00:30:18,540 --> 00:30:19,799
Let me know what you come up with.

455
00:30:19,800 --> 00:30:21,100
Will do.

456
00:31:09,510 --> 00:31:11,430
Hello. Can I help you?

457
00:31:14,940 --> 00:31:16,249
Gabriel.

458
00:31:16,250 --> 00:31:17,580
Excuse me?

459
00:31:21,050 --> 00:31:23,179
I'm... I'm so sorry.

460
00:31:23,180 --> 00:31:24,939
You just...

461
00:31:24,940 --> 00:31:28,139
You just look so much like
someone I used to know.

462
00:31:28,140 --> 00:31:29,799
Gabriel Lockhart.

463
00:31:29,800 --> 00:31:31,150
Yes.

464
00:31:32,060 --> 00:31:33,189
I'm sorry. I...

465
00:31:33,190 --> 00:31:34,540
I'm his son.

466
00:31:35,570 --> 00:31:37,110
My name is Cole.

467
00:31:39,430 --> 00:31:40,590
Well...

468
00:31:41,300 --> 00:31:43,469
this is unexpected.

469
00:31:43,470 --> 00:31:45,820
Nice to meet you, Cole.

470
00:31:45,830 --> 00:31:47,050
Uh, I'm Nan.

471
00:31:48,420 --> 00:31:51,049
- Is this your gallery?
- It is.

472
00:31:51,050 --> 00:31:52,729
Maybe you can help me with something.

473
00:31:52,730 --> 00:31:54,049
This is my father's board,

474
00:31:54,050 --> 00:31:56,759
and it has the same symbol on it.

475
00:31:56,760 --> 00:31:58,550
Oh, my God.

476
00:32:00,730 --> 00:32:02,640
May I?

477
00:32:02,650 --> 00:32:04,650
Sure.

478
00:32:06,330 --> 00:32:07,960
Look at this.

479
00:32:09,530 --> 00:32:10,989
Does it still float?

480
00:32:10,990 --> 00:32:12,109
Perfectly.

481
00:32:13,450 --> 00:32:15,509
I had no idea what I was doing.

482
00:32:15,510 --> 00:32:17,549
I was so young.

483
00:32:17,550 --> 00:32:19,180
You made this board?

484
00:32:20,510 --> 00:32:22,429
I did.

485
00:32:22,430 --> 00:32:23,869
You're a shaper?

486
00:32:23,870 --> 00:32:25,340
Not exactly.

487
00:32:25,350 --> 00:32:28,720
This was the only
surfboard I ever carved.

488
00:32:31,390 --> 00:32:32,719
So...

489
00:32:32,720 --> 00:32:34,980
what brings you to Morro Bay, Cole?

490
00:32:35,600 --> 00:32:37,179
I'm not sure exactly.

491
00:32:37,180 --> 00:32:38,549
From...?

492
00:32:38,550 --> 00:32:40,759
- Montauk.
- Montauk.

493
00:32:42,260 --> 00:32:43,550
Amazing.

494
00:32:45,220 --> 00:32:46,549
Hi there.

495
00:32:46,550 --> 00:32:48,510
Uh, I'll just be a sec.

496
00:32:50,720 --> 00:32:53,760
Um, how long are you in town?

497
00:32:56,300 --> 00:32:58,209
I don't know, really.

498
00:32:58,210 --> 00:33:00,289
I mean, I just got here, so...

499
00:33:00,290 --> 00:33:02,290
Why don't you come by tonight?

500
00:33:02,800 --> 00:33:05,590
I host a weekly salon.

501
00:33:05,600 --> 00:33:06,879
If you're anything

502
00:33:06,880 --> 00:33:08,449
like your father,

503
00:33:08,450 --> 00:33:09,880
I think you'd like it.

504
00:33:12,850 --> 00:33:14,140
Sure.

505
00:33:30,000 --> 00:33:32,290
I'm so glad you found me, Cole.

506
00:33:36,010 --> 00:33:37,550
Thank you.

507
00:33:41,970 --> 00:33:43,799
I'm sorry.

508
00:33:43,800 --> 00:33:46,719
This piece over here is the
one you had your eye on?

509
00:33:54,890 --> 00:33:59,219
If these pellets are
just compressed protein,

510
00:33:59,220 --> 00:34:03,049
why deplete the ocean for them?

511
00:34:03,050 --> 00:34:06,519
Now, as an entrepreneur, John...

512
00:34:06,520 --> 00:34:08,219
This is over my head.

513
00:34:08,220 --> 00:34:10,069
No, it is not.

514
00:34:10,070 --> 00:34:11,189
Sit up and listen.

515
00:34:13,100 --> 00:34:15,479
Oh, look. There he is.

516
00:34:15,480 --> 00:34:19,259
Everyone, here stands
a gift from the past.

517
00:34:19,260 --> 00:34:21,759
The son of a man I used to know.

518
00:34:21,760 --> 00:34:23,679
You know, they say

519
00:34:23,680 --> 00:34:25,799
time moves in a straight line,

520
00:34:25,800 --> 00:34:28,429
but really, it moves in circles.

521
00:34:28,430 --> 00:34:30,180
I'm so glad you made it.

522
00:34:32,300 --> 00:34:33,559
Thanks for the invite.

523
00:34:33,560 --> 00:34:35,440
Yep. Oh, thank you.

524
00:34:35,460 --> 00:34:36,699
Very nice.

525
00:34:36,700 --> 00:34:38,719
Nice place you got here.

526
00:34:38,720 --> 00:34:40,590
It absorbs people.

527
00:34:40,600 --> 00:34:42,390
That's what I love about it.

528
00:34:52,400 --> 00:34:54,889
That's my prot�g�e, Delphine.

529
00:34:54,890 --> 00:34:56,700
Isn't she beautiful?

530
00:34:59,270 --> 00:35:00,389
I'm married.

531
00:35:01,890 --> 00:35:03,439
So, being married prevents you

532
00:35:03,440 --> 00:35:06,510
from forming an opinion
about a beautiful woman?

533
00:35:07,850 --> 00:35:09,490
No, not at all.

534
00:35:11,150 --> 00:35:12,519
Here.

535
00:35:12,520 --> 00:35:14,089
Whoa. Hey, what are you doing?

536
00:35:14,090 --> 00:35:15,679
It's okay.

537
00:35:15,680 --> 00:35:18,050
Poor guy. You're all bound up.

538
00:35:20,380 --> 00:35:21,560
Take a breath.

539
00:35:22,050 --> 00:35:23,600
A deep one.

540
00:35:25,020 --> 00:35:27,520
Go ahead. It's not gonna kill you.

541
00:35:31,760 --> 00:35:34,679
And let it out slowly.

542
00:35:41,260 --> 00:35:42,680
Better?

543
00:35:47,680 --> 00:35:49,930
What was your relationship to my father?

544
00:35:51,680 --> 00:35:53,260
We were lovers.

545
00:35:56,350 --> 00:35:57,660
For how long?

546
00:35:58,800 --> 00:36:00,700
Oh, a few months.

547
00:36:00,710 --> 00:36:02,109
It was the late '70s.

548
00:36:02,110 --> 00:36:04,090
Everyone loved someone.

549
00:36:04,100 --> 00:36:06,300
That summer, I loved your father.

550
00:36:08,230 --> 00:36:09,519
And then?

551
00:36:09,520 --> 00:36:11,049
Nothing.

552
00:36:11,050 --> 00:36:12,749
He went home.

553
00:36:12,750 --> 00:36:15,110
I met someone else. Life moved on.

554
00:36:15,930 --> 00:36:17,290
What about the surfboard?

555
00:36:18,430 --> 00:36:20,300
You know what Freud said.

556
00:36:21,010 --> 00:36:23,880
Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar.

557
00:36:24,590 --> 00:36:25,960
Delphine.

558
00:36:26,610 --> 00:36:27,960
This is Cole.

559
00:36:28,510 --> 00:36:30,500
Cole, this is Delphine.

560
00:36:30,900 --> 00:36:32,239
Hi, Cole.

561
00:36:32,240 --> 00:36:33,450
Hi.

562
00:36:35,080 --> 00:36:36,600
Want some?

563
00:36:39,010 --> 00:36:40,510
Sure.

564
00:36:46,160 --> 00:36:47,789
Oh, shit.

565
00:37:03,010 --> 00:37:04,050
So...

566
00:37:04,830 --> 00:37:06,090
So?

567
00:37:07,540 --> 00:37:09,620
You want to tell me about it?

568
00:37:11,350 --> 00:37:13,009
Tell you about what?

569
00:37:13,010 --> 00:37:15,549
No one drives all the
way across the country

570
00:37:15,550 --> 00:37:17,800
just to see about a surfboard.

571
00:37:21,020 --> 00:37:22,860
What's going on in your marriage?

572
00:37:23,880 --> 00:37:26,480
Luisa and I are working
through some things.

573
00:37:26,840 --> 00:37:28,540
Your father was also

574
00:37:28,580 --> 00:37:30,450
going through a hard
time in his marriage

575
00:37:30,460 --> 00:37:31,760
when he got here.

576
00:37:32,220 --> 00:37:33,940
How long was he here for?

577
00:37:33,950 --> 00:37:35,260
Not long.

578
00:37:36,510 --> 00:37:38,100
Four or five months.

579
00:37:38,760 --> 00:37:40,850
And the two of you were together?

580
00:37:41,350 --> 00:37:42,690
For a while, yes.

581
00:37:47,270 --> 00:37:51,200
I never really thought he
got out of Montauk much.

582
00:37:51,300 --> 00:37:53,759
Oh, no, he traveled quite a bit.

583
00:37:53,760 --> 00:37:54,929
I think.

584
00:37:54,930 --> 00:37:56,580
Or he wanted to.

585
00:37:57,820 --> 00:38:00,160
I can't remember. I just remember a...

586
00:38:01,060 --> 00:38:04,850
great, big, adventurous soul.

587
00:38:06,140 --> 00:38:08,520
I wouldn't describe him as adventurous.

588
00:38:09,160 --> 00:38:10,469
Okay.

589
00:38:10,470 --> 00:38:12,030
How would you describe him?

590
00:38:13,920 --> 00:38:15,180
Drunk.

591
00:38:16,780 --> 00:38:17,990
Abusive.

592
00:38:19,380 --> 00:38:20,990
Emotionally absent.

593
00:38:22,140 --> 00:38:24,000
Chronically depressed.

594
00:38:24,850 --> 00:38:26,040
Wow.

595
00:38:27,080 --> 00:38:29,780
Doesn't sound like the
Gabriel I knew at all.

596
00:38:35,930 --> 00:38:37,620
How is your mother?

597
00:38:38,050 --> 00:38:40,090
Cherry is fine.

598
00:38:40,640 --> 00:38:42,330
Cherry's good, actually.

599
00:38:44,800 --> 00:38:46,419
Are they still together?

600
00:38:47,540 --> 00:38:49,330
No, he's dead, Nan.

601
00:38:52,340 --> 00:38:53,410
What?

602
00:38:53,980 --> 00:38:55,520
He's dead.

603
00:38:57,390 --> 00:38:59,820
I'm sorry. I figured you
would've known that.

604
00:39:01,260 --> 00:39:02,640
When?

605
00:39:03,200 --> 00:39:04,469
Years ago.

606
00:39:04,470 --> 00:39:06,080
I was a little boy.

607
00:39:08,580 --> 00:39:10,080
Oh, my God.

608
00:39:12,040 --> 00:39:13,670
Wow, Gabriel.

609
00:39:24,790 --> 00:39:26,150
I...

610
00:39:27,020 --> 00:39:29,380
I need some air, love. Um...

611
00:39:29,890 --> 00:39:31,809
when you're ready to go to bed,

612
00:39:31,810 --> 00:39:34,260
Delphine will show you to your room.

613
00:39:41,550 --> 00:39:43,140
You an artist, too?

614
00:39:44,160 --> 00:39:45,520
I paint.

615
00:39:47,010 --> 00:39:48,310
Where you from?

616
00:39:49,470 --> 00:39:50,670
Idaho.

617
00:39:51,310 --> 00:39:52,750
Idaho?

618
00:39:53,720 --> 00:39:55,420
Oh, man.

619
00:39:57,520 --> 00:39:59,090
How long you been out here?

620
00:39:59,750 --> 00:40:02,509
I met Nan at a trade show

621
00:40:02,510 --> 00:40:04,719
maybe... five years ago?

622
00:40:04,720 --> 00:40:06,960
And followed her to California to study.

623
00:40:07,470 --> 00:40:11,049
She lets me stay for free as
long as I help out a bit.

624
00:40:15,520 --> 00:40:17,550
It gets bright in here in the mornings.

625
00:40:18,760 --> 00:40:20,880
Let the shower run for a minute.

626
00:40:20,920 --> 00:40:22,970
It takes a little while
for it to get hot.

627
00:40:24,370 --> 00:40:26,370
Okay. Thank you.

628
00:40:47,860 --> 00:40:49,230
What are you doing?

629
00:40:53,790 --> 00:40:55,600
I come with the room.

630
00:41:02,510 --> 00:41:04,219
What kind of game are you playing here?

631
00:41:04,220 --> 00:41:05,849
I'm married.

632
00:41:05,850 --> 00:41:07,549
Okay.

633
00:41:07,550 --> 00:41:09,219
Look, I don't know who you are,

634
00:41:09,220 --> 00:41:10,439
and I don't know what this place is,

635
00:41:10,440 --> 00:41:12,749
but I came here to find out why
my father came to California,

636
00:41:12,750 --> 00:41:15,479
- not to cheat on my wife.
- Okay, then don't.

637
00:41:15,480 --> 00:41:17,799
Well, I'm trying not to, but
it's a little difficult

638
00:41:17,800 --> 00:41:19,839
when you got a half-naked
woman in your bed.

639
00:41:19,840 --> 00:41:21,720
Ask her to leave.

640
00:41:23,180 --> 00:41:25,889
I'm sure she was just trying to help.

641
00:41:25,890 --> 00:41:29,179
You seem wound so tight, Cole.

642
00:41:29,180 --> 00:41:30,400
To help?

643
00:41:31,420 --> 00:41:33,000
I don't need that kind of help.

644
00:41:33,880 --> 00:41:36,270
I can't believe I have to
even explain this to you.

645
00:41:37,010 --> 00:41:38,729
Maybe I shouldn't be surprised, though.

646
00:41:38,730 --> 00:41:40,350
I mean, you slept with my
father when he was married,

647
00:41:40,360 --> 00:41:42,399
so clearly marriage isn't that
much of a problem to you.

648
00:41:42,400 --> 00:41:45,800
Actually, your father's marriage
was my biggest problem.

649
00:41:47,390 --> 00:41:49,140
What is that supposed to mean?

650
00:41:54,700 --> 00:41:56,529
What is this? A love letter?

651
00:41:56,530 --> 00:41:57,590
Yes.

652
00:41:57,600 --> 00:41:59,380
I have a whole box of them.

653
00:42:06,640 --> 00:42:08,430
When did he write all those?

654
00:42:09,120 --> 00:42:10,889
We wrote to each other on and off

655
00:42:10,890 --> 00:42:12,679
after he left Morro Bay.

656
00:42:12,680 --> 00:42:13,850
For how long?

657
00:42:14,260 --> 00:42:16,139
About ten years.

658
00:42:16,140 --> 00:42:18,350
I thought you said it
was a brief affair.

659
00:42:20,180 --> 00:42:21,480
I lied.

660
00:42:28,020 --> 00:42:29,810
I can't believe he's dead.

661
00:42:32,750 --> 00:42:36,100
There was a time I thought
he was my be'shert.

662
00:42:37,540 --> 00:42:39,230
Do you know what that word means?

663
00:42:40,350 --> 00:42:42,849
It means soul mate.

664
00:42:42,850 --> 00:42:44,469
My destiny.

665
00:42:44,470 --> 00:42:45,840
Look.

666
00:42:50,180 --> 00:42:51,390
You see?

667
00:42:54,720 --> 00:42:55,980
"N"...

668
00:42:57,830 --> 00:42:59,170
"G."

669
00:43:04,430 --> 00:43:06,860
That surfboard was his favorite thing.

670
00:43:08,240 --> 00:43:10,050
We met down at the beach.

671
00:43:11,850 --> 00:43:14,910
I'd seen him around town before, but...

672
00:43:15,510 --> 00:43:17,929
he was such a loner.

673
00:43:17,930 --> 00:43:19,890
He always kept to himself.

674
00:43:22,570 --> 00:43:25,940
I asked him if I could
take pictures of him.

675
00:43:27,550 --> 00:43:28,840
He was...

676
00:43:29,600 --> 00:43:31,510
so handsome, so...

677
00:43:32,010 --> 00:43:33,290
striking.

678
00:43:33,970 --> 00:43:37,179
After that first night,
we were never apart

679
00:43:37,180 --> 00:43:38,760
for four months.

680
00:43:41,100 --> 00:43:43,500
He called me "Wild Eyes."

681
00:43:48,340 --> 00:43:52,130
He said he didn't know women
like me existed in the world.

682
00:43:54,560 --> 00:43:56,100
I'll show you.

683
00:43:58,180 --> 00:43:59,820
"You asked me what I want

684
00:43:59,840 --> 00:44:01,259
from you, my love.

685
00:44:01,260 --> 00:44:03,299
My answer is simple.

686
00:44:03,300 --> 00:44:05,059
First, your mind.

687
00:44:05,060 --> 00:44:06,490
Then your body.

688
00:44:07,260 --> 00:44:08,770
Then your soul."

689
00:44:17,310 --> 00:44:18,980
So, why'd he leave?

690
00:44:21,720 --> 00:44:23,560
Cherry was pregnant.

691
00:44:24,560 --> 00:44:27,239
She wrote that if he didn't come home,

692
00:44:27,240 --> 00:44:29,740
she would kill herself.

693
00:44:31,720 --> 00:44:32,760
What?

694
00:44:33,560 --> 00:44:34,990
So he left.

695
00:44:44,110 --> 00:44:46,160
And then what? He just stopped writing?

696
00:44:47,020 --> 00:44:49,679
No, but his letters

697
00:44:49,680 --> 00:44:52,680
became more sad, bitter.

698
00:44:53,350 --> 00:44:56,019
They kept having more
kids, he felt trapped,

699
00:44:56,020 --> 00:44:59,430
and the thought of me was
just making him miserable.

700
00:45:00,010 --> 00:45:02,940
So I devised a plan,

701
00:45:03,860 --> 00:45:07,730
a way to extract me from
his heart and his head.

702
00:45:08,510 --> 00:45:10,440
To forget me once and for all.

703
00:45:11,390 --> 00:45:14,020
An exorcism of sorts.

704
00:45:16,350 --> 00:45:17,510
Did it work?

705
00:45:18,660 --> 00:45:19,729
It did.

706
00:45:19,730 --> 00:45:20,960
How do you know that?

707
00:45:21,680 --> 00:45:23,689
Because the last task,

708
00:45:23,690 --> 00:45:27,219
the final instruction,
if he finally knew

709
00:45:27,220 --> 00:45:29,420
he was no longer in love with me,

710
00:45:30,230 --> 00:45:33,140
was to send my letters back.

711
00:45:34,100 --> 00:45:35,380
All of them.

712
00:45:40,170 --> 00:45:41,670
And here they are.

713
00:45:45,690 --> 00:45:47,130
I'm sorry, Nan.

714
00:45:48,300 --> 00:45:49,800
Don't be, sweetheart.

715
00:45:50,430 --> 00:45:52,260
We wanted different things.

716
00:45:52,720 --> 00:45:54,600
I have no regrets.

717
00:45:58,430 --> 00:45:59,790
Don't worry.

718
00:46:01,550 --> 00:46:03,040
Neither did he.

719
00:46:14,930 --> 00:46:17,520
You've reached the voice
mail of Alison and...

720
00:46:17,540 --> 00:46:18,590
Joanie!

721
00:46:18,600 --> 00:46:20,560
We can't get to the
phone right now so...

722
00:46:23,680 --> 00:46:25,100
Fuck.

723
00:47:09,010 --> 00:47:11,100
How did the exorcism work?

724
00:47:12,380 --> 00:47:15,280
I sent your father five final letters,

725
00:47:15,830 --> 00:47:17,190
one at a time.

726
00:47:17,760 --> 00:47:20,160
Each one with a task.

727
00:47:21,020 --> 00:47:22,969
Every time he completed a task,

728
00:47:22,970 --> 00:47:24,290
I sent him another.

729
00:47:28,800 --> 00:47:30,000
Read this.

730
00:47:39,970 --> 00:47:42,340
"Find my scent in nature."

731
00:47:42,350 --> 00:47:43,610
Delphine will help you.

732
00:48:40,050 --> 00:48:41,729
"Task two.

733
00:48:41,730 --> 00:48:45,719
Write down everything you love about me,

734
00:48:45,720 --> 00:48:48,090
and then wrap the words
around my scent."

735
00:48:49,370 --> 00:48:51,790
I love that she always
calls me on my shit.

736
00:48:55,180 --> 00:48:56,840
I love how smart she is.

737
00:48:58,070 --> 00:49:00,530
I love how she deals with grief head-on.

738
00:49:01,790 --> 00:49:03,360
When our boy died...

739
00:49:06,870 --> 00:49:10,580
I couldn't admit my own grief, so...

740
00:49:11,470 --> 00:49:14,190
I made her carry the
burden for the both of us.

741
00:49:17,820 --> 00:49:20,620
I made her feel like
she was the weak one.

742
00:49:25,380 --> 00:49:27,139
I made her feel like she was going crazy

743
00:49:27,140 --> 00:49:28,889
so I wouldn't lose my own mind.

744
00:49:38,490 --> 00:49:41,259
"Number three. Build a pyre.

745
00:49:41,260 --> 00:49:44,590
Imbue each stone with
something you hate about me.

746
00:49:44,600 --> 00:49:46,510
Add the smell and the things you love.

747
00:49:48,550 --> 00:49:50,430
And then set it all ablaze."

748
00:49:56,800 --> 00:49:59,140
I hate how unforgiving you are.

749
00:50:01,920 --> 00:50:05,799
I hate that you never told
me how unhappy you were.

750
00:50:05,800 --> 00:50:10,260
I hate that you ran off
with Noah fucking Solloway.

751
00:50:11,890 --> 00:50:14,160
And I hate what shitty
taste you have in men.

752
00:50:14,180 --> 00:50:16,640
That you are always picking
guys who don't deserve you.

753
00:50:17,760 --> 00:50:20,340
I hate that you gave up on me.

754
00:50:26,750 --> 00:50:30,120
I hate that I can't give up on you.

755
00:50:33,050 --> 00:50:34,759
What do you want?

756
00:50:34,760 --> 00:50:37,550
Before you do this, you need
to state your intention.

757
00:50:42,650 --> 00:50:46,350
I want to be free of you.

758
00:52:02,930 --> 00:52:04,240
Didn't work.

759
00:52:05,790 --> 00:52:07,410
I feel worse.

760
00:52:09,800 --> 00:52:11,510
I'm sorry.

761
00:52:12,700 --> 00:52:14,550
It worked on your dad.

762
00:52:18,140 --> 00:52:19,410
I have to go home.

763
00:52:20,840 --> 00:52:22,130
Back to your wife?

764
00:52:27,910 --> 00:52:30,290
Do you want to see the final letter?

765
00:52:31,610 --> 00:52:32,760
Sure.

766
00:52:46,170 --> 00:52:48,049
"Now you've finished all four tasks,

767
00:52:48,050 --> 00:52:50,150
and so the exorcism is complete.

768
00:52:51,240 --> 00:52:52,740
If it worked...

769
00:52:55,220 --> 00:52:56,960
...and you no longer love me,

770
00:52:58,090 --> 00:53:00,300
send me these letters back so I know.

771
00:53:00,830 --> 00:53:03,320
I remain yours... Mind, body and soul.

772
00:53:04,050 --> 00:53:05,180
Nan."

773
00:53:33,320 --> 00:53:35,740
Nan, my dad didn't send
these letters to you.

774
00:53:39,430 --> 00:53:40,930
What do you mean?

775
00:53:42,560 --> 00:53:45,600
It's postmarked two years after he died.

776
00:53:51,700 --> 00:53:53,450
I don't understand.

777
00:53:57,730 --> 00:54:00,070
I think my mom found those letters.

778
00:54:01,400 --> 00:54:03,570
And then read them, and
then sent them to you,

779
00:54:04,270 --> 00:54:06,930
hoping you'd think they'd come from him.

780
00:54:17,570 --> 00:54:19,440
All this time, I...

781
00:54:21,120 --> 00:54:23,330
I thought he didn't love me anymore.

782
00:54:33,430 --> 00:54:35,430
How did he die?

783
00:54:43,590 --> 00:54:46,220
He hung himself on my tenth birthday.

784
00:54:52,110 --> 00:54:54,609
Couple weeks after you
sent that last one.

785
00:55:01,800 --> 00:55:03,220
Cole.

786
00:55:07,100 --> 00:55:09,160
She wants you to take this with you.

787
00:55:09,670 --> 00:55:10,990
Where are you going?

788
00:55:11,530 --> 00:55:12,869
I'm going home.

789
00:55:12,870 --> 00:55:14,420
Back to your wife?

790
00:55:15,290 --> 00:55:16,500
No.

791
00:55:22,230 --> 00:55:24,470
I tried to make it work with my wife.

792
00:55:25,890 --> 00:55:29,000
She is a wonderful woman,
and she deserves more

793
00:55:29,020 --> 00:55:30,759
than somebody who's just half there,

794
00:55:30,760 --> 00:55:33,110
and the truth is I'm in
love with somebody else.

795
00:55:35,350 --> 00:55:38,880
And I have tried for years
to get her out of my mind,

796
00:55:38,900 --> 00:55:41,250
but it just never
works, and I don't want

797
00:55:41,260 --> 00:55:42,849
to wake up in ten years
and want to kill myself

798
00:55:42,850 --> 00:55:45,080
'cause I was just trying
to do the right thing.

799
00:55:46,070 --> 00:55:47,470
So I'm going home.

800
00:55:48,570 --> 00:55:50,190
I'm gonna tell her how I feel.

801
00:55:53,430 --> 00:55:54,470
What?

802
00:55:57,060 --> 00:55:59,299
She's lucky, whoever she is.

803
00:56:01,850 --> 00:56:03,300
Delphine.

804
00:56:07,100 --> 00:56:08,810
I'm sorry about last night.

805
00:56:09,640 --> 00:56:12,180
Don't be. I wanted that.

806
00:56:13,580 --> 00:56:15,400
What are you doing here?

807
00:56:16,850 --> 00:56:19,849
Seriously, you're beautiful,
you're smart, you're talented.

808
00:56:19,850 --> 00:56:21,749
You could do whatever you want to do,

809
00:56:21,750 --> 00:56:23,179
be with whoever you want to be with.

810
00:56:23,180 --> 00:56:25,759
You don't have to be Nan's proxy
for the rest of your life.

811
00:56:25,760 --> 00:56:27,969
I like being her proxy.

812
00:56:27,970 --> 00:56:30,100
I think Nan's a genius.

813
00:56:35,680 --> 00:56:38,600
Take care of your mind, body and soul.

814
00:56:40,390 --> 00:56:41,930
You, too.

815
00:57:19,220 --> 00:57:20,549
Thanks, Dad.

816
00:57:22,570 --> 00:57:25,540
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